I dun feel like writing here anymore. Perhaps i realli shld shift and lock up my blog. Anyway, sorry for not making things clear on my last entry. I realli meant p.n.g.t.e.h(my clique) and hanlu actually. Really. I feel that(esp in hanlu's case)that sometimes we realli look at pple's bad points and their good points are just a blindspot to us. It's onli when she's leaving us den we start looking at things fr a different perspective. Sorry if that entry is er..misguiding.
Sighz..having a sore throat and bad cough now. Aniwae, today was quite fun, din thought that we could have gotten first as we er...din even go to 2 stations while there are grps hu finished all the stations..sommore we got lost twice. Haha. Once is misguided by me..:( and we ended up in some ulu place. Then realised we went in frt of the garden instead of behind which is the rite way so we turned back and tried again. The second time we asked some1 at the counter and he said he will bring us dere if we pay him $8(er..). Obviously we din and he dumped us halfway haha. Made us tot we were lost. Well that nature trail he asked us to go to was quite scary...wif skulls and ribcages and quite slippery oso. Haha. But it's the first time i went dere or shld i say i dun even noe that place existed. Aiya..i lazy to say abt the rest liaoz. But basically we got first(yay). It's actually quite expected fr the other grps lar(u noe wad i mean).
Jiening i tink wad u said at the ** is realli true. I totally agree. But shan't bring it up. I dun want any more troubles. My heart is breaking..realli..i dunnoe wad to say..i juz feel dotxxified at wadever tt's happening now. If onli i can dun care..but i shldn't and couldn't. We are sort of sandwiched in betweeen, alwaes. Everything done's wrong, nothing's rite. Mostly.It's not that we din try, we realli tried our best. Realli.And we are still trying, just that our enthusiasm is dying away, slowly draining off. Just that mebbe it carn be seen. Or perhaps now. If onli it can get better soon. If onli we can regain our lost enthusiasm and passion to try. If onli...If onli..
Bahh.. i noe i am just getting myself into more trouble by writing this. But i just hav to say it. If u tink that it's not wad u want to see, juz go away..no one forced u to cum aniwae. I feel real sad, depressed, beating back tears..
I lurve my year.=) Let's jiayou together. We can make it. Yea.=)

Why do pple often onli spots the small mistakes one has but not the good points even though it far exceeds the bad points? If I show u a piece of paper wif a small teeny weeny dot on it and ask u wad u see..Wad would u say, a big piece of white paper or a small dot? Most people would just pin-point on the small dot and forget all abt the big pece of white paper which forms 99.999999% of the whole thing. This realli applies so much in real life. They never noe the worst thing to do is to compare us wif others. That way, instead of improving, one will feel even more dejected and unmotivated and bear a grudge against the others. Nvm if u dun understand. Few do anyway.
Reflections, reflections...i am asked to do so many reflections. Reflect on yrself. Finee i admit i am drifting away fr pngeh. Realise i even took out the "t"? I am spending more time wif others like those in my ccas(i guess the big clique present also cause this problem heh in class). I sincerely apologise now for not being a loyal pngteher, i noe i am the least enthu, least participative etc. Sorry, pls accept my apology. I almost cried after reading huiyi's blog entry and that day when i toked to gege abt this issue, i cried too...Sometimes however, i do things that i tink is morally rite(oh dear, y do i sound like tian) like the "debate or pngteh discussion" issue. I tink it's rong to do things like discussion abt outings during the debate discussion. I noe that the other pple think it isn't realli rite oso. But anyways, i felt realli sad, like a sowrd piercing thru my heart when huiyi told me not once but twice "we discussed the outing without u" and walked away. It's not that i dowan, juz tt sometimes it's not realli appropriate. Aniwae, will try my very best to make up for my misdeeds like joining u all for the morning run(aka stroll). Haha..to end off.....pngteh rawks my world!!!!!(I mean it realli)

Wheee!! Hols at last..at long last!!!But my schedule for next week is fully packed..realli fully packed: Monday- Sentosa trip/GOH Tuesday- SYF training Wed- Vesak day Thurs- Trip to chocolate factory Fri- RCK silver acreed and CA briefing Saturday-training and mebbe SYF training Sunday- Church. The following weeks also have syf trainings, goh, trip to japan, pngteh outing etc. Whoaa...realli damn busy..Plus the hw..esp chinese and maths hw realli a lot. Got back report today. Have summative and formative. My GPA is 3.6 lar..feel very zi4 bei1 compared to my yrmates(weiming got like 3.83 lar!!) Haish..even got lower den eva bahh. I got lowest for lit budden it's not the final grade 'cause the mock test which i got a pathetic 14/25 was counted as the summative though in actual fact not supposed to be..Haish..quite disappointing, my other B ish history. Got 69,just one mark to get 3.6...a difference of 0.4 marks lehz. Formative er...i tink the tchers used templates or sth, or seemed to be abt the same except for maths: say wad muz hav more analytical thinking to show my full potential (sounds so cheem heh).. Tian was so elated over the history results but was sad:( when i told her i got the same remarks and think it's a template for everyone. =) 0oooo..this is sho cool..me going to chocolate factory wif my rs grp on next thursday!!!! Carn wait to see how chocolates are made XD.
I tink it's a bit mean to do that. By saying something to us first to make the pple hu got in gain hope and at last decide not to include them. This will realli hurt the person's feelings lar...esp dey did it more den once, giving someone hope and later destroying it. The pain and disappointment felt will be realli tremendous. I rather dey not tell us till it's realli confirmed. It is a choice out of 2 hu were given hope..one would be eliminated..Nvm if u carn understand..
Haizz..anyway found out some stuff today..not very erm..encouraging, things would definitely be different if we had our say. Heh. OK..i am not making sense. Paisehx, i tink onli some pple will understand wad i am toking abt..
O yar, me template, eva's, tian's and huiyi's are almost identical. hehe. I wonder y the sudden popularity.:)
Aniwaes, gtg to do the shitty proposal to be handed in tonite the deadline. Buaiz~

Mrt and hospitals

Sorry if i sounded very pissed juz now..'cause ii desperately wanted to release my anger n frustration. Aniwae, today i walked to orchard mrt station wif Ru..n missed 2 105 buses after i crossed the road and missed 2 more 190 buses. Bahh..was trying to be Ah Q, saying walking is good for our body and we caught up wif the 190 bus 2 times. Heh. Then at mrt station, a woman came up to us asking us to help her mother (70+) get to yio chu kang station. So i got her a seat on the mrt train n reminded her to get off at yio chu kang. This sets me thinking that although the mrt is convenient, it still does not really cater to elderlies who are illiterate. Perhaps some announcements in dialects,should be made for each station instead of just English. This may help to remind and inform elderlies when to get off the train. Even places like the hospitals also dun have chinese signs and my grandparents alwaes hav to be accompanied by my mum to the hospital for fear that they lost their way there.
Okiesh, i shall go n continue doing that proposal, onli left wif the research methodology(eva's part) n Backgrd info(qi's part) now. oooo..a good news!! Bibi is returning to sch on Monday!!! YAY!! At last..but while bibi recovers, tian falls ill..y do i hav a feeling that i will be the next one down?? Haizz..hopefully not..I hereby wish all my yrmates and classmates hu are down wif the virus to GET WELL SOON!! Drink plenty of fluids and rest well kiesh?

U want to avoid me rite? FINE...i HELP U. Happy? Like i even care..it's even better that way..i have alwaes wanted to do that but decided not to...but u pushed me to my limits. HAPPY?
Aniwaes, RS proposal supoposed to send to my teacher mentor tonite and all my grp members are either at the tuition, concert or sick. Leaving me trying to do a new proposal from scratch by TONITE.
The year virus worsening, now tian is down too. Lemme list out the pple down: Shihua, Jiening, Cheryl, Bixue, Weiming, Goh Tian. Goodness noe still have hu(touch wood). Ok, gtg buaiz~

Blogs are getting more n more popular nowadays. Now, almost my whole class has a blog each. Today helped eva wif her blog. Managed to do up the whole blog wif the skin and the tagboard within a comp studies lesson.XD Aniwae..no goh tomorrow yea. Tt will give me more time to work on the damn proposal which is like redone n redone 3 times liaoz?? Haizz..i wonder wad we will settle on. Going to visit my dad's fren's chocolate factory. So cool sia. I wonder wad it looks like inside the chocolate factory. Juz reminds me of the factory in "charlie n the chocolate factory". YAY!! Bixue dun hav dengue after all..it's the doc anihow say one. But she going hospital tomorrow. The poor girl, had fever for a whole week liaoz..GET WELL SOON BIXUE!!! I miss u.
I was very depressed after lunch today..even cried a little..after hearing the 3rd proposal gets rejected and getting pissed abt sth related to hog*..pouring out to tian again hu suggested drawing a smiley face on my arm. So i drew one on my left arm and she drew one on my right arm..and that realli made me smileee. =) Haizz.. it's abt 12 midninte now n tomorrow hafta wake up at 5.40am, to take public transport(like todae) as my bro finished his mid-years and dun need go to sch so dad not fetching. Bleaghx. To end off, p.n.g.t.e.h rawks my world(i dunnoe y but i juz feel like saying that). Buaiz~

Gosh, I realli carn stand her. Was complaining to tian abt her.. If onli.. If onli..den she would not have gotten it. Ok, i dun tink anyone understand wad i am toking abt. But i realli hate her. Carn stand her manz.Poor bibi, suspected have dengue fever..GET WELL SOON!!! I wonder if the talk did any good..fr wad i heard, isn't tt encouraging.
Aniwaes, i climbed the rock wall todae!! Managed to climb to the top but it's not as high as huiru tt route lar..but the feeling was great. Actually the part above the red line is easier den the part below the red line. Had to stretch like siao to reach for one particular yellow handhold which is quite far away and sommore the foothold there very small not stable one. That's when i felt tt i have no strength to reach higher n gonna fall but thnx to the encouragement of my grpmates..i reagined new strength n juz grabbed the handhold, wif my life depending on the harness. Luckily, i din miss it and managed to climb on. Phew. Sighz, now hav muscle aches..actually i alreadi had muscle aches when i was climbing n now it's worse. Today is the day of hope. Firstly, i hoped that i would not spill any ink when inserting the micropipette into the agar and i realli din:) Secondly, i hoped i could climb to the top of the rockwall todae n i did. Thirdly, i was tinking that ms lim would call me to answer the ques n the next second i was called. Fourthly, i hoped that i would not fail and get quite high for eng compre(unlike the previous time i failed) and i got 20/25!!!:)Fifthly, i was hoping that the 105 would come as i reach the busstop and it did(unfortunately, some PEOPLE held on to me n cindy n we had to take 190 in the end.) Lastly, i hoped that 190 would come as soon as we reach the busstop and it realli did. Well, i calculated my english marks today n realised could get at least 72:) YAY!! Was quite surprised we got second best for the HPV proj thingy(2 points less than forst grp onli)Eva very poor thing got 69.85 for English which is like 0.15 marks to get A lar..haizz..luckily is not 69.99. That is the worst. I wonder if i can get A for history..calculated 70 exactly if take the round off figures which is in the list but if take not not rounded off figures, i would get like 69. sth. Bahh. The grade points are quite stoopid. A 0.1 mark could make realli a difference. Someone who got 69.9 would get B+ while some1 hu gets 70 gets A. And someone hu got 80 would get A+ same as some1 hu gets 100. Well, i tink mebbe last time the point system is better..
Bahh..gotta rewrite the whole proposal..think we doing on branded chocolates now.. Gotta submit by tomorrow to mrs leuar so i gotta go. Bye~

Ok...now am waiting for Eva to finish the research methodology part of the proposal. Giving moral support n nth betta to do so decided to blogg. Aniwae, recently, we received quite a lot of our CA marks. Geog-70.2, hist-70, chi-84, maths-80.6, Sci- 77.8, Philo- FAIL. The rest haven't gotten back. Haizz..am quite happy abt my geog n hist both got A as these 2 r my weakest subjects. Science could have gotten A+ if not for that stupid balancing Eq. quiz.. Bleaghx..ok shan't complain. My class is realli quite lousy at history and geog. History no one managed to get A+(above 80). Eva topped the class, i got 2nd heh. Quite surprised. Geog onli Tian got above 80. Zai sia..like alwaes heh.=)
This week quite hectic, gotta stay back everyday except wed mostly 'cause of rc except for thurs.As for today, i hope wad we hav done is beneficial and worth it..hope we will not be disappointed next time=) Jiayou~Better stop elaborating b4 someone kills me. :p
Phew..am i glad my dad sent me to sch today or else i would have been stuck on the mrt. Like ru. I tink dere's a year virus in my year tt's spreading. First ning, den shihua..now xue. See...we so bonded..even have a year virus..haha. I carn wait for the ** to be done!!! Whee~ and thnx shihua n yenlin for volunteering to rescue the poor **. THANKYOU!!! I noe i screwed it but i realli very bad at that. Bleahx. Okiesh..eva finally done wif the methodology(400 words--wow~)so i can go n sleep now!! Buaiz~ *yawns*

I dun wish to tok abt today.

Okay, now to blogg abt yesterday's training. It was Evac and Evac and Evac. Acreed was fine, all of us passed~WELL DONE YRMATES!!~Ambulance drill was fun oso. Was casualty for the stair chair and it wasn't too bad, at least not as bad as the scoop stretcher(or wadever tt is, tt's wad i heard though.)**Peien was tied onto the scoop stretcher and spun 360 degrees around(Whoaa). She thinks it's fun though. haha. We also learnt the equipment in the ambulance like stiff neck, head immobilizer, oxygen tank, resuscitator, air splint and the suction thingy etc. Aniwae the stiff neck was much too big for me n i carn breathe properly. hehe, n i broke the metal thingy for the oxygen tank, din noe i was so strong heh. but the sir was nice, din blame me n taped the metal thingy back. Oopsies. We played wif the suction thingy n found it very interesting(esp rach hu attempts to suck all the water even those spilled on the table). and the sound made is very "pleasant".
Goh Tian, yr template is sooooooo similar to mine...almost exactly the same onli diff pic of the FF n pink cloud cursor instead of blue. Bahh..in case u dunnoe yr template is exactly the same as some1 elses. Shall tell u personally hu. *ahem ahem*.
There's this amazing race thingy organized by NKF or sth and aruna n i got chosen. Dunnoe y u all din choose huiru, seriously she's better den me at long dist n climbing lor. Haish..u all ah..
I am so excited abt PNGTEH pullover!! Carn wait for it to cum out!! Wonder when it can be done.. Hmm.. den we can all wear it in class!! Whee~Oh yar, and the ** pullover, i wonder how's it cumin out...woo...i gonna have so many pullovers..YAY!!
There's a new problem n i wonder how it will end up to becum..but not many pple noe abt it aniwae so nvm..shall worry abt it alone..n some other pple hu noes.
Okiesh, gtg, my cousin cumin later.. Oh yar HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!! To my dearest mummy and Grace!!HEHE~

Tomorrow have evac for the entire training.Evac acreed. ambulance drill. I still remember last year during CCA orientation i got volunteered to be carried into the ambulance. Heh.. tt's the 1st time i saw the insides of the ambulance. N i dunnoe y, was on a eating spree today. Ate a plate of rice + veggys and meat, 1 agar agar and 2 ice creams for lunch. Eva and Huiru were quite shocked. But the ice cream i got 2 for 50 cents. I bought one and Chere gave me the second free. Heh. Then when i greeted the sek 3 ma'ams wif bixue at the traffic lights, i choked on the ice cream. Haha. Consequence for being too greedy. Oh no, i forgot tomorrow have Evac Acreed, sorri shihua!!! I realli din mean it...juz tt the canteen looked very empty n easy to buy food so i ate a lot..Arghhh...beginning to regret eating that second ice cream now but was tempted 'cause it was free. Heh. Tomorrow's Evac acreed, ALL THE BEST YRMATES!!! WE CAN DO IT!!!Practised wif shihua on wednesday..it was quite okay lar. N Yuen Hung, jiayou!! Remember to stand up straight for cradle movement horz. U have done it b4 alreadi n i believe u can do it tomorrow!! Yea..todae ish World RC day. Full u, marched in the morning, saluted uniformed grp tchers, sat on chairs during assembly. N cindy was so farnie, i din noe there can be so many ways of wearing the beret. *ahem ahem-pirate eyes* Carn stop laughing when seeing that.. Sat wif juniors together wif tian, liqi and xue. I hope yrmates wun mind..:s Juz tt we hav no time to get over the other side of the hall and we can keep an eye on the juniors den though dey were mostly guai1.*glares at someone(not junior)..hehe* :p That someone go n hit my head against her head..very pain u noe:(.
Lemme backtrack a little..to a few days ago. I was going home, going to enter the MRT train when a boy rushed into the carriage without even waiting for the pple to cum out first. Then i went in n sat beside that boy. I took my handphone fr my pocket and put it into my bag. The boy was unlocking his bag(there was a huge lock on it). I was tinking that he was a very kiasu person when he suddenly asked me to lend him my handfone to call his fren. I refused as my handphone onli hav $2+ to last me till mid june. Den the boy took out a piece of crumpled paper, scribbled some things on it and asked me to donate. Of course i wasn't tricked. like hu could ask for donations wif juz a piece of foolscap wif a few untidy words on top???-_-I refused n remained my stand so he had no choice but to stop asking. I tot he would give up but instead he stood up n asked other pple in the train for donations. Most of the pple refused n rolled their eyes. However, he still managed to persuade an old lady to donate..The poor thing, was tricked although she kept ensuring tt he wasn't tricking her. Owells, after that, he went into the next carriage n continued asking...:S:S Okiesh, gtg liaoz...buhbyez

I am longing to post an entry...i have too much to sae...too much but i have a geog test tomorrow which i haven't studied so this entry is to remind me to blogg abt some things. Hehez..gtg n mugg..bye~

Hmm..thankyou all those pple hu cheered me up!! Esp my darling mortal Xinying, Cheryl ma'am and Chelsea!!Thank you!! I feel much happier now. N i hope Tian, yr problem will be solved quickly too!! Gd luck!!N haha, hilary, thanks for being so enthu at tagging my blog and Tian your karate chop sounds hilarious..Thanks again!!
P.S. wow, this is the first time i blogged 3 times in 1 day..n i am using the comp for the entire day. So i shall let both my eyes rest n my computer to rest. Carn afford for it to explode.

I am so sad...so sad. Y are problems creating from nothing at all? Y carn pple juz stay happy like b4 instead of creating those problems that are not even existant?? N ".", y r u saying that to me? Wad have a done to make u so hate me? Can somebody please tell me? Or give me an answer? Y am i alwaes sandwiched in the middle, trying to make things out for everyone? Y am i guilty of sth that i did not even do or did not even noe wad did i go wrong? Y carn we stay as a happy year? Y muz we get angry with each other over such trivial matters? Y?Y?Y?

I just realised that the keyboard problem is onli evident in MSN..hmm..i wonder does anyone else hav such a problem?

todae, pngteh came over to do the geog project. For the first time ever, we managed to finish the project b4 lunch which is like WOW. The latest we did until i remember clearly was 9pm. Yes. The whole morning till 9pm. We made a lot of noise as usual n left a lot of rubbish for me n mum to clean up. bleaghx. Aniwae yesterdae's maths test was a killer. really. It's so damn difficult. I tink i will flunk it. I alreadi minus like 23 points out of 50 can? But luckily everyone tot that it was tough, even the geppers n those so zai in maths. So i guess it's okay. There's this person hu tagged at my blog as "." but i dunnoe hu he/she is. I want to ask u..wad wrong did i do that made u so pissed with me? I realli dunnoe. I did not offend anibody at all..so u sure u got the right person? I hope u dun throw such nasty remarks at pple, not onli me again. Hope u understand, huever u r. My year appears to have some problems...or at least that are reflected in blogs. Pple feel left out and sad. Pple getting pissed wif each other but din realise that perhaps the problem did not exist at all..juz an misunderstanding. Hope u pple cheer up!!Probably it's juz a misunderstanding. Actually, i am not even sure wad happened. I am quite confused now reading the blog entries abt problems that i tot were inexistant in real life. Ok, i am not toking sense so i shall stop here. My keyboard went crazy again todae..all the signs got mixed up n "y" became "z" and vice versa. Weird. But i tink it's fixed now. It made me tot wad's wrong wif my password as i carn sign in. Ahah so now u noe tt my blog either has y or z or has signs..Hmm..there's lit test and bio test on Monday..both i haven't studied yet..so i tink i better go n study. Carn afford to flunk them like my maths. So buaiz~